Revenant Movie: Should Oscar go to Bear or Leo?

I saw the movie last night. It is beautifully shot and story is touching.

———Includes some spoilers———–

Details are amazing. When we were watching the movie we made jokes that Leonardo Di Caprio did everything possible in this movie to get the Oscar. Of course this is a joke.

Tom Hardy’s performance as the supporting actor also worth attention. It was funny that we thought that “It would be so disappointing if Hardy gets and oscar and Leo cannot” 🙂




But after all the movie I should say bear scene and dream scenes are the ones that are left with me. I liked the realism in bear scenes and touching feeling in dream scenes.

Worth seeing!


Let’s Fight Club One MORE Time!

I have seen the movie first and became a fan of it. I have seen it couple of times before I read the book.


Couple of days ago I have read a review that said that the movie was great but the book is greater. I started reading the book. It is beautifully written and fast moving. It totally syncs with the movie as far as I remember the script.

Another significant feature of the book is –apart from extra info on home making explosives- that it is like reading a psychologically ill mind. Where do I know it? Yep like most of us I feel sometimes that thoughts are flowing through my mind that are impossible to follow. And bingo: I am a Pisces. Nobody knows except Pisces how far their imaginations or “ill mindedness” can go. For live instances check modern day politicians who were born into same horoscope! When I was fascinated by this thought flows technique of the book I checked Palahnuik on Wikipedia. Bingo: He was born the same day with me! A Pisces, an ill mind with extensive imagination or just another creative author.

I have been reading a lot of sci-fi books lately to escape from my hectic reality. Good news: I have finished writing up my dissertation. Last pace is of course a bit more tight and more stressful than the last 6 years. OMG who would believe that I would spend my best years in such a nerd thing. I was such a nerd already then forget about “Oh who would have believe that?” part.

To rip it up I definitely suggest the book to movie fans! Or people who like to be surprised and wants to have a glimpse of mind flow technique in writing.

The Movie LUCY: Shall everyone using more of his / her brain should be bitchy?


What I am going to present here is a very brief discussion on different levels of perceptions on human nature, knowledge and progress between Eastern philosophies and Western approach in general. I just want to touch upon some points that occurred to me while watching the movie “Lucy”.

=====This piece includes some spoilers about the movie Lucy

Eastern philosophies have claimed that some mystic people -let them be Sufis, or yogis- who are close to love of God can control their own body, beliefs of other people or travel in time. However, as far as I know they have not put a scientific approach to it.

Today quantum physics theories and different scientists speculate on what would happen if people enhance their brain capacity. It is one of the favorite topics in sci-fi movies too. (Even our civilization history of bloodshed -as the most brilliant creatures on earth (!)- is not very promising, we wonder what if…).

So I like to think that mystic travellers are the ones who are the closest ones to that theory instead of scientists or geniuses of our time. I believe that it should not be limited to be brilliant in one part of modern science but a composite experience of enhancing individual mindfulness. That is why I think that it should not be limited to brain capacity but also one’s personal progress.

In the movie, as much as Lucy uses more of her brain, she starts to act robotic and inhumane. She tells that she loses desire, fear, or feeling of pain. She becomes totally cold-hearted. As more she becomes powerful, she looks acts less like a human or woman. At a certain point, I think we stop considering her as a woman since she acts not gendered.

On the contrary, if we consider claims of many Eastern philosophies to today’s quantum speculations, we find a different level of mindfulness. As much as someone gets closer to perfection (let’s say as one shows progress in using her/his brain in different levels) they are expected to be more humanistic with a more holistic vision.

They feel more intensively, they love more; they internalize people’s suffering more…

These people such as prophets, yogis, and mystics are claimed to talk words of wisdom, love, patience, and understanding. Some claim they can experience time travelling, healing power, control over their bodies, and conducting miracles. Again contrary to how it is shot in Lucy, they become perfect teachers, good leaders who collected millions around them in different thoughts and religions.

So just saying, I do not like thinking that if you more of our brain, we turn into computers. I like to think that we perceive more, we become better…

the fountain

This video of Jill Bolte Taylor’s stroke of insight (as a neurologist) shows what I mean a bit deeper… It is not directly related to using more of the brain instead using ‘some’ of it. It has some insights on my discussion.

The Maze Runner vs. PhD Student

I am gonna finish it!

I could not decide this piece to be a movie review or a comment on PhD writing adventure. So I decided to make both. Since everything reminds a student her unfinished research, not even watching a movie without comparisons, evaluations, conclusions, examples, and justifications is not possible!

Note: This piece may include some spoilers about the movie the Maze Runner

  • I told in my first blog writings that you should warn me to go back to my research if I posted more than you expect. (Special thanks to my friends who never warned me!) Just kidding, my friends and my beloved husband already know that giving a warning to a PhD student can receive unexpected reactions:
  • break ups, broken hearts, mean comments expressed in different forms:


  • -What did you achieve in life that you dare to criticize me?
  • -I have a Masters degree!
  • -I graduated from the university in top 5.
  • -Do you know how hard it is to continue this?
  • -You never support me etc etc.
    • Mostly accompanied by tears, unnecessary depressive gestures and so on.

So first warning: Never warn a PhD student!

This week I have been busy with my research. It made me feel more positive finally to be able to study on my PhD. again after a long time. 2014 was the hardest year in my life with numerous health issues, loss of a beloved one and so on… Basically this year gave me lots of tears and depression. So PhD adventure is not only a fight with time but also turned into a psychological war for me.

I know that I have to be patient, I know that I have to focus better, I know that I have to push myself enough to keep on studying but not too hard to slide into depression (again and again). I know these things because I have been a life long student. First things I learned in life made me more and more hungry for learning. Nobody told me that I will end up in a PhD maze!

Last week I also saw this movie “The Maze Runner”. As a PhD student it did not scare me a bit. Because running in a maze without a map and with unknown obstacles is nothing when compared to following years long research.

If you think being deserted in an unknown place and robotic spiders in a maze are scary, think about some problems that a researcher face everyday: conflicting comments from a committee, nonexistent funding, an underpaid and life consuming job, isolation from every aspect of life, still being a highly criticized student in your 30s, long hours of asocial studies and so on…

life of pi

Considering these funky facts, being a PhD. student is quite similar to being a maze runner. You have to run everyday over and over the same maze to make a ever changing map of it. Trying to figure out why you are deserted in there and questioning your life choices again and again everyday. one minute believing that you are doing the most important thing and the second minute downgrading your efforts realising the fact that nobody reads a dissertation.

But as is issued in the movie the Maze Runner, there should always be a bit of hope to see the light at the end of this mighty maze! So forget about what I have been telling and try to remember “happiness of being on the way” instead of obsessing about getting at the end of the maze.

Distopian Movies 101

Would not it be great if I was crazy. Then the world would be ok.

Twelve monkeys

I have long wanted to write something on distopian literature. Dystopia as opposite to utopia basically means negative prospects and presentation of future in literature and cinema.

I started watching movies which dwell on issues such as negative aspects of hyper scientific developments on human’s life, role of authority and power on new societies and individual’s role in this picture. I saw movies like Splice, Surrogates, 1984, Gattaca, 12 Monkeys


Basically all movies presents a major shift in authority: From humans to robots, computers, a new system, a major charismatic leader or hyper technological devices. At the same time they play with the perception of truth as it obviously happens in Matrix movies.


What is real? How do you define real? If you’re talking about what you can feel, what you can smell, what you can taste and see, then real is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain.

Do not try to bend the spoon — that’s impossible. Instead, only try to realize the truth: there is no spoon. The Matrix

—-Spoiler alert on Matrix movie —- (Come on you should have seen it until now)

And unfortunately, distopian literature mostly do not have happy endings at it happens in Matrix in form of Neo’s reach to his ultimate, true self.

Worth to mention, utopian movies also present human’s urge to seek a hero, a savior. In Splice the scientist hope that their discoveries will save the world and open way to cure for uncurable illnesses. In Matrix, they basically follow prophecies to reach the One, the savior. In Surrogates, people even do not understand that they ask for a hero.

I want to continue to this topic later on. If you have any ideas or articles to share, pls do not hesitate.